My Head is Gone

Im going crazy right now. i put off paying my tuition to the last minute.

and now its so damn complicated. i wanted to do it without the help of my mother. and now i sorta have no choice.

I hate that. if there is on thing ive strived after my whole life, is

I N D E P E D E N C E.

I probaly need to work on my own definition of what that is. i need to work on how i define alot of things.

S K I P S K I P H O P H O P


You ever feel like life is passing you by?
like things are moving and youre just stagnant?
or have you ever felt like shit is not moving at all?

i dunno if im in a rut or what it is...nothing excites me anymore everything is blah. just o.k
Ive Changed into someone im not sure that i want to be..i no longer have faith in people. i accept them for the flawed beings that they are. i no longer give second chances, just last nite i dropped two associates, theyll realize later.
i used to believe in love..as sappy as that sounds..or at least in knowing you care for someone.
i cared for someone...deep. like we werent together and he probaly could make me bark on command. and JADE doesnt bark. but after trying and trying and trying, i gave up i cant make someone realize my love. i cant make them want it. its selfish to want to be with someone despite the fact that it might not be good for them. so i i kinda muted out those feelings,and a rinky dink friendship will suffice. and ill cherish it too.

Shit stinks. Febreeze it and move on.