I start to reminisce over you,

I Started This day optimistic but it went way Downhill. a phone call that i got from a friend yesterday kept Bothering me.

The underlying current of that call was sooooo Negative. I feel like me being happy must be some cardinal sin that everyone is trying to stop me from committing. my friends shouldnt have underlying resentment towards me....do you know how dangerous that is? i have Selfish friends, Crazy friends and Friends that don't want me to be friends with their old friends. WTF?

I know they care about me, of course they aren't all bad or why would i call them friends anyway.

BUT

sometimes i wish i was all alone. when I'm alone i let my thoughts float around like little bubbles..eventually they pop and go away.

i don't know if this is even appropriate to put out there in Blog Land. but I'm So Confused.

I have a tendency to want what i cant have, even if what i can have is 100000 times better. i need to quit that. that's no way to go through life. i figure ill end this with a Post Secret. i promise to make a more interesting post later.