Weekends Of December Past

This Will Be MY Catch up Post.

Ive Been Very Mentally Busy the past Couple Of days.
Everytime I Think that ive got something figured out, the Queerest Things occur and i Just Dont Know anymore.
Im getting better and better at masking feelings, it scary because im starting to mask them from myself. The Most overwhelming feelings ive had these past weeks is my love for Kevin, and a Huge sense of failure.
Its Like im Not doing enough. shit Could be worse Though.
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So last Saturday [the 13th] Kevin And I went On Our first Date, Well as a couple anyway. It was My First Date...PERIOD. I found that Funny, my ex boyfriends are trash and a half. ill take this paragraph and talk about Kev. He's Great. I love him. Its scary. I was so Into being single. I will say however that it is very difficult to transition from Single to Very Much Spoken for. well for me anyway. people are used to me just not caring about anyone. But I would give my liver lungs and spleen to Kevin. Its Serious. exactly what I was avoiding. we'll see how this works.
So This Saturday [the 20th] the party that i been promoting was finally here. it was cool. i went with Persia and Sharese. the night had a real slow start but turned out alright. the town i live in is way too fucking small. i had one dude lean over and start a convo that went like so

HIM: Hello Beautiful *extends hand*

ME:*shakes hand* umm Hi?

HIM: Ive seen you before

ME: *puzzled look*

HIM: At the Mall 2 days Ago, You Were wearing sneakers ...[duh i always wear sneakers]
ME: uhhh Ok?

HIM: I never forget a Pretty Face

ME: uhmmmmm ok Byeeee

HIM: You're so heartless.

____ Thinking of this Convo made Me Laugh all night.
Then This dude who I've consistently danced with at this party and the last, reveals that he has seen me about 2yrs ago..this man even knows who i was dating then. idk but i felt bamboozled.
ugh parties are starting to feel like work.

BIG issue of the Night however Is when Persia told me some shit she over heard that SURPRISINGLY made my blood run Cold and HOT at the same time, i was sooo HEATED. i didn't think i would care. but i will testify that old habits die hard. and that's all some people are....Habits. Severely bad habits. But that is where my feelings stop and my brain kicks in.
Ill End This particular post with My Fave Flicks From The Night.